These past few weeks have been such a whirlwind. So much has been going on so time is flying and it hasn’t really sunk in that Peyton can be here very soon. Reaching 34 weeks has been a milestone for us because at this point, my doctor won’t stop labor if it starts. Unfortunately, from what I can tell, she is still breech. SO that means that if she doesn’t turn very soon… we will be scheduling a c-section.
That has been really hard for me to accept. It is the last thing I wanted and the furthest from what I wanted. It makes me extremely nervous that at any point, if these appointments I have twice a week give them the idea that she is better off out than in, I will most likely be having a c-section that day. The goal is to get me to at least 37 weeks. I really hope that we can because of the fact that she is smaller than average and it’ll be early. Having a c-section freaks me out lol I know how routine it is for them… and how often they are performed (which is too much, IMO). I’m not going to get into it because I don’t feel like debating, but it is a major surgery, and not something I take lightly.
My appointment on Monday went pretty well. The NST was great. The first thing my doctor said when she walked in the room was “your baby looks great!”. Always something I love to hear 🙂 She measured my fundal height. She didn’t say anything and went over to her clipboard and wrote the measurement down. I asked… “Well??? Am I still 3 weeks behind? “No, 1 maybe 2 weeks behind!”. This also made me really happy! It makes me feel like she is still growing pretty well and maybe had a little growth spurt! I sure hope so! So after that I had a lot of questions regarding last weeks doppler ultrasound. I was still pretty confused about the umbilical cord resistance. She said that the problem is mild and it very well could have resolved itself or was never a problem at all, just something that was caught in that moment. If it does start to go in the wrong direction though, I will most likely be having the baby at that point, which is a scary thought. She told me she is very optimistic, confident, and that the NST tells her that Peyton is doing absolutely fine. She also said that we could possibly be overreaching with everything so that really put my mind at ease. We have the next NST/doppler appointment tomorrow. I’m definitely nervous and I have a lot of anxiety about it. I’m very hopeful that things will have either resolved or in the very least stayed the same.
I will admit that even with the positive appointment I had, I have still been really stressed and fearful. Unfortunately, the negative thinker I am, takes over a lot. I haven’t been myself. I’m doing my best to change that and to be as positive as possible. I feel in my heart that Peyton will be just fine. I think a lot of this will be unnecessary stress. The unknown is what drives me insane though.
Peyton has been VERY busy lately which really makes me feel good 🙂 She’s moving all parts of her body all over the place… but staying in the same position… -__- of course lol She is building her own immune system, peeing up to a pint a day, and preparing “meconium” which will be her first poop! Her lungs, brain, and central nervous system are developing rapidly. (Her lungs already have an edge thanks to those really super cool fun steroid shots to the ass).
How far along? 34 weeks
Total weight gain/loss? A little over 22 pounds.
Maternity clothes? Yes
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep? Tossin’ and turnin’
Best moment this week? Having a positive doctor’s appointment!
Miss anything? I think this one should just permanently be a Jimmy John’s sub.
Movement? Constantly the past couple days!
Food cravings? Sweeeeeeets, always.
Anything making you queasy or sick? No
Showing yet? Yes
Gender guesses? No guess! It’s a GIRL! ❤
Belly button in or out? In! I think it may just stay in at this point or get more flat.
Wedding rings on or off? Off, but no swelling.
Happy or moody? Mood swingy
Looking forward to? Tomorrow’s appointment. Hoping for good news! Fingers crossed.